ROMANS 9:2
“that I have great sorrow and unceasing grief in my heart.”
I am sure you have heard the expression, “heavy heart.” You may have experienced that yourself at one point in your heart. It’s really hard to describe and put into words. You have to experience it yourself to be able to relate to someone going through this. It’s not depression. That’s a whole other thing. It’s just…well…a heaviness you can’t describe.
Paul is trying to express his heavy heart in today’s verse. He is thinking about his kinsmen, the nation of Israel, knowing that so many of them will perish apart from the Lord because of their refusal to recognize Jesus as the long awaited Messiah. The words “sorrow” and “grief” are described by Gill’s Exposition of the Bible this way. “These two words, ‘heaviness’ and ‘sorrow, the one signifies grief, which had brought on heaviness on his spirits; and the other such pain as a woman in travail feels: and the trouble of his mind expressed by both, is described by its quantity, ‘great’, it was not a little, but much; by its quality it was internal, it was in his ‘heart’,”
APPLICATION
The word “sorrow” is lupé which is used sixteen times throughout the New Testament. In Luke 22:45, it is used to describe Peter, James and John when they fell asleep waiting for Jesus to finish praying in the garden. “When He rose from prayer, He came to the disciples and found them sleeping from sorrow.” You can imagine the heaviness these three felt, knowing what was to come. They were Jesus’ closest companions, the three He poured extra into. They knew His demise was upon them, so Luke describes the heaviness that caused their sleep.
Paul uses oduné to describe his unceasing grief. This word is only used here and over in 1 Timothy 6:10. There Paul is describing those who “have wandered away from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs.” That would be a self-inflicted grief. Still painful, but avoidable. That is not the case in today’s verse. Paul was in deep grief and sorrow over his nation. He so desired them to come to Christ.
I, too, am grieving over my nation. When I see all the riots and protests, all the rejection of Christ, my heart is heavy. But what am I doing about it? Some days I am feel I am doing all I can, but other days not enough. Let us all agree to stop grieving and start doing. Let us not grow weary and fall asleep from our sorrow like Peter, James and John. Let us fight until the end, leaving it all on the battlefield for Jesus.
Father, heal my heaviness of heart for my nation and give me a renewed vigor and energy to reach the lost.If the Lord should lead you to support our ministry